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totaldramafan-lauri · 5 months ago

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I just wanna vent out about something.. about golden cheese..

I think I'm starting to lose interest in her, I don't know why but I guess it was the lack of content of her, no offense I wasn't getting bored or anything but.. I'm scared I don't wanna lose feelings for Golden cheese cookie.. I dont wanna let go because I love golden cheese cookie for almost a year now.. well not good compare to you but I'm just scared, I don't know why I'm scared when I lost feelings with fictional characters all the time but golden cheese was an exception.. an exception that is bothering me for awhile, I don't wanna lose feelings of her since I still love her but Im getting real bored of her due to the lack of content..

I may seem impatient and all because of the lack of Golden cheese content that's why I'm venting to a more dedicated fan of Golden cheese, it's you Lauri.. what do I do?.. no offense but I just want advice because I don't wanna get stuck on this stage tha might bother me for awhile..

I love her, I don't wanna let go of this love because of how much time and dedication I took I spent on the crk game on her, I do it for fun events too but all the reason I even joined this game because of her.. I joined because of her, I played because of her! I maxed out her level first this last few months but what do I get? Getting stuck on the loading screen where I can see the golden cheese cookie! and now this heck of a connection keeps saying 'network error connection' when my network is strong and fine, my phone too is expensive and new! Like.. Devsis.. you don't want another boycott do you? Because this is getting too far that you aren't even bothering to fix it..

I'm really sorry Lauri but I'm just so frustrated, I want to max out Golden cheese soulstones and all so I just keep playing.. I eventually got mad.. and maybe have taken my anger on Golden cheese cookie.. and after that.. oh how deeply I regret it because I just blame golden cheese for the Devsis doing.. because oh heck no.. I am and I am going to see my wife!! Like.. why aren't you letting me Devsis! It's been weeks since I logged in due to this error!.. I'm stuck at the LOADING SCREEEENNNN!! Ughhh.. I'm crying so much.. I might even have to delete my account and start over... I just wanna cry... T-T) just.. like it is hard to let me see my wife in-game!?..

Sorry for yapping all that Lauri.. just want your advice on what to do since.. I'm so so sorry for saying all that, I just wanna know if I should just give up or continue pressing that 'okay' button on the screen or just make a new account and delete the new account or something.. Im so sorry if this makes you sad or feel bad. I'm really sorry :(((

.. I'm just so bad and frustrated right now.. I can't even log in and check my golden cheese cookie.. all this is making me tired and it's hurting and making my feelings go away from golden cheese cookie.. oh my gosh.. I just don't.. I don't want to deal with that button that pop on my face like 'network connection error' like it was a taunting me.. I just wanna throw my phone on the heck of a wall or something like that!..

I' might take a break from Golden cheese cookie for awhile, glad that I loved her all these months, and these days.. I'm just so proud of myself for even keeping this up.. Still your fan though, I won't stop reading your fics even if it isn't a golden cheese cookie anymore.. and maybe I might move to FPE fandom anytime soon because I'm just tired of Devsis doing all this.. sorry for all the venting I did.. :(((

For the lack of content....I....I actually understand. Th-the same thing happened with me with Affogato, where.....I-I still love him, and he's still my king, but the fact that next to nothing's been done with him since Odyssey made me kinda lose focus on him over time (I was still MIFFED that he didn't appear in the Matcha update with the rest of the CoD tho XD). With Golden Cheese, tho, it's.....it's different.....I-I'm still hooked on her....so.....i-if you wanna know why, uh.....part of it is my fic, but also....

L-look at it this way. There are a lot - like, a LOT - of characters in CRK. It's impossible to focus on one character constantly when they're always adding more. However, the Ancients are the true main characters of this game, so....they're a case where we KNOW more content is COMING eventually. E-especially with the Beasts. So....th-that's what I keep telling myself. More content of her is coming. I dunno when, but it IS coming....e-even if it takes a while, I'll be there, and....i-in the meantime, the rest of the stories they release will keep me occupied til I see her again....

(That being said, there's also no shame in taking a break from the game until an update that reignites your interest. People do that all the time. XD Not everyone is as hyperfocused as me, and that's completely fine. CRK is actually pretty forgiving to returning players)

S-so....yeah.....it's coming. And....j-just like her promise to her subjects that she'll be back for them, the game has promised us that it'll come back to her in time. Like I said, the Ancients ARE the main characters of CRK at this point (Gingerbrave is just a mascot now, let's be real XD) And....y-yeah, that's how I hold on to hope. TBH, once I fall this hard for a character, usually it'll last me a couple years even with a lack of content - I had a crush on one character based on a single pilot last me FOUR years - so this kinda thing, it's.....it's different for everyone. I-I hope you understand my thought process, tho.....

A-and in the meantime....that's kinda what fan content is here for....like my fic.....so.....I-I guess I should apologize that my fic isn't good enough to keep you interested in her.....I-I really do my best to do her justice with my writing and....to be self-indulgent, but also make it still feel like her.....as in, in-character, so....yeah, s-sorry.....I-I understand that it's been going on for a while, and....i-if your interest doesn't last that long, I understand, OK....? ^^ Th-thank you for reading....

A-and finally.....a-about your error screen.....I-I've had similar happen to me. F-for a few months, I've had problems with my game crashing (oddly, it's gotten BETTER these last two updates. The crashing was worst during the Mystic Flour update), and.....d-during that time, I did have a bit of a scary experience....

Here's how I dealt with it.

(for other people who aren't interest in in-game stuff, don't bother reading under the cut)

DISCLAIMER: THIS IS THE ONLY TIME I WILL ANSWER AN ASK THAT DEALS WITH COMPLAINTS AGAINST DEVSIS. I WILL NOT DO THIS AGAIN. I have endless respect for Devsis and all they've done with CRK, and it's a MAJOR pet peeve of mine when players throw unfair complaints at them for things either out of their control or just calling the game P2W or whatever when it's NOT (except for Grandmaster tier in the arena) and it's just a case of kids being too impatient to handle a game with grinding in it. I HATE things like that. The only reasons I'm addressing it this time is not only cuz it's the first, but also cuz I think I have advice on what to do for this one issue. But I WILL NOT tolerate being yelled at about people's issues with CRK or Devsis. I just wanna talk about Golden Cheese, the characters associated with her, and my fic. THAT IS ALL.

N-now, um.....it wasn't the exact same error you're getting. At least....n-not the wording you're giving me. The "network connection is unstable" error has NEVER lasted that long to me, and it doesn't happen on the title screen. This is probably on your end, not the game's, so please don't make comments about boycotting Devsis. It won't help.

HOWEVER, I have gotten AN error on the title screen before, that wouldn't go away no matter how long I waited. The message was "Failed to load data". I dunno if it's the same one you're getting, cuz I dunno if maybe it's worded differently in other languages or if you're playing in English, but....y-yeah, this is what it was spitting at me. I'd close the game and wait a few hours, but it never went away. The problem is that it never reloaded the title screen. It just stayed there. At least with errors that happen during the game, I can wait an hour and come back. Nnnnnot so much with stuff on the title screen. XD

So....I.....I panicked. And....h-here's what I did.

I deleted the game from my phone, and then reinstalled it. This is NOT the same as deleting my ACCOUNT. My account still existed. I deleted the GAME. Then, when I redownloaded it, I simply just logged back in to my DevPlay account and everything was right where I left it. Th-that's how I survived the biggest scare I've had playing this game. XD

I-I dunno how much this'll help you.....cuz I dunno if it's the same error, and I also dunno how you made your account (like I use DevPlay). B-but.....your issue just....sounded similar to that, so I thought I could t-try to help......I-I'm sorry if it doesn't....

F-for what it's worth, I've been playing this game since 2021, so I....I have a lotta patience with it.....^^;

#people actually talking to me

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twilightknight17 · 11 months ago

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On this round of P3R, we’re heading to the red-light district!

But first, I just want to say, Fuuka’s link requires MAX COURAGE to start? Omg. Now I’m assuming Mitsuru needs max academics. Good god. NG+ is absolutely gonna be needed for this.

So it’s now the third (technically fourth) full moon! And now that I’m thinking about the Magician and that whole mess, I think it’s a little funny that no one in SEES, in any of our downtime, has ever questioned, “Hey, what the fuck was that thing that ripped itself out of Orpheus and bodied the Magician in one shot? It might help with some of these slogging battles.” But no. It’s fine. We don’t need to know what that vastly powerful persona was. Whatever. Let’s rock.

Shirakawa Boulevard, despite Ikutsuki’s attempts to talk around it, is where the love hotels are!

I’m pressing X to doubt, sir!

So we’re off to the Champs de Fleurs hotel, and actually other than the weird curtained waiting area and sexy price list next to the front desk, it does look pretty normal? Like, it’s a hotel. It’s got hotel hallways and elevators and stuff.

And then we get to the third floor and the equivalent to the presidential suite.

This is labeled as the Hierophant’s Chamber, and… Lovers is supposed to be here? Did the P3 movies just straight-up skip the Hierophant Shadow and I never noticed? XDDD The Hierophant is very round and kind of looks like a really big guy with a lady with a head made of coral behind him.

Hierophant wasn’t bad, actually, and we get to explore the room afterwards before heading back downstairs. The kids clown on a lot of the décor, but like, the silly round bed would be cool for the novelty, and who DOESN’T want a tub that big???

But when we try to leave, we all get knocked out, and Minato wakes up in a different room, where Yukari is taking a shower.

This sounds very like Orpheus, but it’s definitely not Orpheus, because Orpheus would know that Yukari is not our soulmate!

Yes I will continue being biased. XDDDDD

If you say anything other than the correct answer, you get a “wait, that doesn’t seem right” thought bubble, and the dialogue just loops back to the start. You cannot fuck up the mission and game over on a night of brainwashed debauchery. XD

Minato comes to his senses, gets up from the bed, and Yukari comes out wrapped in a towel. She abruptly realizes where she is, screams, and slaps Minato before running back in the bathroom. And… Yukari? I was literally just standing here. Holy shit. Is this the pre-Kyoto warmup scene? God.

NONE OF THIS WAS MY FAULT???

Fuuka gets through to us, and we go back up to the second floor to meet up with Junpei and Akihiko.

I can only assume Junpei and Akihiko were put in the same room.

No one accused you of anything. Although now I’m giggling wondering what would have happened if I’d brought Mitsuru along instead.

We roam the hotel to find the mirrors we need to break to get back into the suite, and this is weirdly hilarious, all things considered.

But eventually we find our way back into the boss arena, and the Lovers has the perfect design, honestly.

GOD is it a bitch to fight, though. This fight took AGES because EVERY time it cast a spell with a charm effect, people got brainwashed. God forbid anyone other than Minato ever dodge an attack. Jesus fuck. I used every single one of my patra gems and dis-charms. Plus it cast diarama halfway through and of course when a boss does that it heals THOUSANDS of HP back to full health. Just give it salvation if you’re gonna do that.

As a brief side note, I love that when Minato casts the Jack Bros’ fusion spell, he just casually walks “offstage” afterwards and leaves them to it.

But finally, we’re out of here.

...Yukari volunteered so that I couldn’t take her out of the party and ruin my scripted undeserved slap. X’D

Gee, Yukari, I wonder if it’s because no one ever has anything nice to say to him? He just gets treated like the comic relief.

Also, we’re being watched by these dudes.

So when you say “we” do you mean you three, or like… humanity as a whole?

Back to the dorm to sleep this bullshit off, and then we move on with our week!

...christ, dude, I just came to see how you were doing. Can I please have a dialogue option so we can talk about this??? No???? Okay… God, this is Mona all over again. My god damn Magicians are always having problems.

...well, that’s nice. I wasn’t expecting that.

People at school are gossiping about how the school was rebuilt after an explosion ten years ago, and I’m getting texts from my attendant, who I apparently haven’t added to my phone? But at least she texts nicely.

It’s pre-exam week, so all my social links are busy. Instead, my academics are lagging, so I’m studying with the members of SEES who aren’t cranky with me. That means Yukari and Fuuka, and Mitsuru and Akihiko. Akihiko recommends doing a quick workout after every few problems, because then, you’ll power through the next set in anticipation of getting to your next workout!

Everyone I live with is insane. I love them. :’D

Ikutsuki calls a meeting to discuss something important, but before he can get to it, Yukari wants to speak. She’s had Fuuka looking into some stuff from the incident that happened ten years ago, and now she wants answers, because she thinks Mitsuru has been hiding things from us.

Other than the explosion, students were sent to the hospital, even though they were formally noted as just “absent”. It’s the same thing that happened to the girls bullying Fuuka; they fell unconscious and were unresponsive. Turns out, yeah, it was the same sort of thing. And it was Mitsuru’s grandfather, Koetsu Kirijo’s fault.

In greater Persona lore, knowing that he broke off from the Nanjo Group, he probably had access to tech that made his bullshit significantly easier to pull off. At the very least, we know he had the blueprints for a prototype anti-shadow suppression weapon, and the method to create artificial persona-users. But of course, he pushed too far.

(Sorry that these subtitles are kind of blurry. Basically, they gathered up a shitload of shadows and then lost control of them, because of course they did.)

Tartarus and the Dark Hour exist because of all of this. The lab explosion happened because they lost control, and because the lab was around/under Gekkoukan, it ended with the school needing to be rebuilt as well.

Yukari is not pleased with this development. She feels like we’re just being used to clean up other people’s mess. But as Ikutsuki puts it, we’re the only ones who can fix things. Normal people can’t fight shadows.

He also says that no one knows why the Arcana Shadows suddenly reappeared after ten years, but… Well.

No one is okay after this.

Junpei is angry because he feels like nothing he does is good enough, and that all he’s really good at is fighting, which won’t be necessary anymore if the Dark Hour vanishes.

Akihiko goes to see Shinji, who he apparently grew up with in an orphanage with someone named Miki, to tell him that they know how to stop the shadows now. But Shinji still won’t come back to SEES.

Me and Minato aren’t okay because I’ve finally started this guy’s social link, and he’s a dick.

Yukari’s dad was the lead researcher on the shadow stuff that led to the explosion, so I assume that he’s the one who got blamed for everything. Ikutsuki mentioned that the media picked one dude and demonized him.

I think this date is wrong, though. If it was ten years ago, that’d be 1999. Right? :/ It’s also just funnier if the lab exploded like 3 weeks after the Sumaru crisis ended.

But I saved the cat! So everything is not a complete wreck.

Pharos comes back to see me and implies some sketchy shit about my parents.

My parents (and my sister, shush, I’m pretending it’s canon) did not explode, though. So this isn’t their fault.

We’re absolutely friends.

After affirming that at least one person will stick by me to the end, even if that one person is a strange child who keeps waking me up at midnight, I come home from school the next day to find everyone sitting around experiencing the most awkward silence ever conceived.

Akihiko, no!

Thankfully, we manage to talk through what’s bothering the group as a whole (Junpei is still mad at me, I think), and Ikutsuki shows up to suggest that after exams, we all go on vacation to Mitsuru’s family’s summer home on the island of Yakushima. Her dad is going to be there, apparently!

Mitsuru reluctantly agrees, Yukari apologizes to her for being too gung-ho and accusatory the other night, and I think we’re all chill again. Which is good.

…….it’s my last night before exams and my option for study-buddy is Ikutsuki???

Nah. I’m out.

#Li plays P3Re

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egg-emperor · 1 year ago

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we beat Sonic Dream Team!! man I'm so glad I could get the chance to play it after all. it was a ton of fun, I went back to 100% everything across all the stages myself because I enjoyed it so much so all that's left to do is the Tails challenges now which are a time locked renewing thing- if it were my choice I would've done all of those by now XD

I like both but this was more my kind of modern Sonic game over Frontiers in design choices and gameplay. the levels look gorgeous and even with my heavy bias of IT'S EGGMAN THEMED aside, they're colorful and fun and well designed. every level was the most fun to play over all of cyberspace, a little too easy but it came with it's occasional fun challenge when getting 100%

the music is the weakest part, some good tracks in there for sure but most just aren't that memorable beyond 3-4 that got stuck in my head because they were good so hey. I really loved the story and overall concept too, it was simple but the concept of exploring Eggman's twisted dreamscape is fucking awesome and I of course have many thoughts about that

Ego City is my favorite stage and I knooow that sounds like bias coming from me but it's well designed and a ton of fun. there wasn't much going on with the bosses and they were super easy but they still all had really cool designs. I looove Nightmare Eggman so much 🥰 I just wish we could've had some more direct combat with him in the boss level but I still appreciate him a lot

I had so much fun it's addictive. I like all classic and modern games that have released in the past few years but it's been a while since I was THIS hooked on a newer title. the only reason I'm not still playing it right now is that it's my bro's TV and that there's nothing else to do on it until those Tails challenges renew dhfjdbdjgkshfj. EXTREMELY HIGH recommend

it's really unfortunate how it's limited to Apple because everyone needs to play this, I hope there is a way for them to branch out eventually. if you want a cheap TV to play it on, the model A1842 is recommended, you can play just fine at max graphic settings! it only had a couple of loading errors that required restarts but other than that it was clear and smooth

#sonic dream team #my post

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studentbyday · 1 year ago

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day 57-58 // 100dop

monday: so this week is an intro to organic reactions and i am SO glad that organic chem is a notoriously difficult subject so you have LOTS of explanations available online and in particular, i'm loving @thecrashcourse's organic chemistry series (really, crash course puts me in the mood to study when nothing else can XD), and just bc I don't get the book or prof's explanations doesn't mean the prof is bad or the book is bad or that i'm an idiot, sometimes we just need a different way of explaining for us to get it and that's completely fine. 🙂

tuesday: i must've gone insane bc i just signed myself up to take 4 courses this fall...how am i already feeling overwhelmed XD the most i've taken in a semester is 3 courses and that was tough, i couldn't do anything else except study - idk, maybe i've smartened up in terms of study skills since then and i can take this load and get A+ in all of them (can you tell how bad my perfectionism is? 😖😅 ...yet i'm hesitant to let it go entirely bc i could also just not try and then not learn much of anything and then what am i spending this money for, going to university????)???? i highly doubt that my study skills have improved much tho 😅😅😅😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 one of those courses is calculus and i have NOT touched that since high school and i barely remember precalc so aaaaahhhhhhhh - i'm hoping to get through some khan academy videos/questions on the topic before September (taking calculus was kind of a last minute decision 😑), starting with "getting ready for precalculus" (i finished a few practice quizzes on polynomials today) because their ACTUAL precalculus section looks scary and unfamiliar (nggghhh how am i gonna do thisss?). also really confused about complex numbers and imaginary numbers and i found a video on it by 3b1b, i'm still watching it (it's an hour and 22 mins long) and i looove how calm i feel when being guided through a specific topic that's confusing me instead of just...feeling overwhelmed by the complexity and the immense info dump in my university courses... finished 2 sections of chem notes, got 2 more left to do...1 of them is really big but i was able to read through the rest of the chapter today (thank God they're not going THAT deep with organic reactions, else i would go crazy) and i seem to understand it, so that shouldn't be TOO much of a problem (i just have to read and think slower than i'd like with these things...)

update: i just counted the max number of hours per day i would spend studying based on the recommended hours per week for each course... that's 10 hours of focused studying. i don't think i've ever focused 100% for that long???? (in the past, I've always gone over...and i think it's bc my focus starts waning pretty quickly but I never realize it until I've snapped back to reality and start really studying again 🙄 smh, i gotta do better than that if i don't wanna have to drop)

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murfpersonalblog · 1 year ago

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TVL & VC Thoughts: Storyboarding

Because I have insomnia, I was up all night thinking about the rumors that Sam's contract was signed for 5 seasons. It makes me both nervous and hopeful, cuz Lestat features in way more than just 5 VC books. So if there's only 5 seasons locked in (hopefully NOT counting IWTV being split into 2, meaning Sam only has 3 other seasons), I'm wondering what these 3-ish other seasons would cover? �� Hour-long episodes are enough to condense SOME of the books into 7/8-ep seasons, but not others.

TVL & QotD are ofc the bigguns, that COULD be condensed into one season, but SHOULD get their own individual ones, IMO.

ToTBT - urgh. I already said I hate this book. NGL I hope they condense this into 2 episodes MAX, as filler. Raglan was basically a monster-of-the-week. We do NOT need to be sitting here watching Lestat re-learn how to poop & pee. And ffs get rid of David, he literally just got in the way; let that dude retire! Having Ciprien come back'd be a cool feature/crossover, but I really don't need Lestat out here traumatizing more black people, thanks. 😒

MTD - yoooo.... What do you even DO with this? XD Like, I can't imagine having a whole frikkin season of Lestat's Inferno, but without Memnoch you lose ALL context behind Lestat's coma, his missing eyeball, Armand's suicide attempt, Louis' suicide attempt, and Lestat's course correction as a character. 😈 It was the fallout post-Memnoch that is so important to Lestat's story; but TBH I can honestly see the bulk of MTD itself condensed into 2 filler episodes tops.

Merrick - IMO this needs to be integrated into IWTV2 as part of Louis' storyline, not Lestat's. Even though it's here that he (officially) wakes from the coma (post-TVA--which IMO deserves its own spinoff season; we need more Assad if they don't cover Armand's backstory in IWTV2).

Blackwood Farm - NGL I want a whole dang season of BwF. 😅 IMO it's the craziest VC book, we NEED to see these people on screen. We'd get that Merrick Mayfair feature, too--but if they do her dirty here like AR, Imma be FURIOUS.

Blood Canticle - 💩 TRASH!!!!! 💩

Prince Lestat & RoA & BC: TBH I think these should all be merged into one season, as they all deal with Rhoshamandes. If QotD sets up Amel early, AND includes MEKARE, then PL should get right to the action. RoA was padded with a LOT of straight descriptions, which can EASILY be condensed on screen with visuals--that's the book that needed to be illustrated! RoA really doesn't need its own season; we just need to see Rhosh established as the Big Bad in PL & RoA, and get Amel's backstory. (I HOPE they'll keep the aliens in, but AR was obviously using bird-feathered/winged extraterrestrials as the secular answer to Christianity's angels, so I'm fine either way. I'll be sad if they cut them all out entirely and Amel's JUST a (human) ghost). As for BC, it wasn't a long book at all; it just had a lot of BIG, iconic moments. I DEMAND to see Chateau Era Loustat domestic tooth-rotting fluff on my effing screen, ISTG. 🙏 This is the series finale--it deserves to give Loustat E V E R Y T H I N G; from the lowest lows to the greatest highs. I need Prince Consort Louis bossed up. 🤴🏾 I need Lestat having a mental breakdown just like Louis did when Daniel was tearing him to shreds in Ep7. I need Armand screaming, crying, throwing up. I need the WEDDING(S). I need the BALLROOM. I will sue.

Naturally, I could be waaaaay off on all of this. U_U

#the vampire chronicles #the vampire lestat #loustat #must see tv #lestat de lioncourt

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slashingdisneypasta · 2 years ago

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What are some things you like about Jim? :3 please absolutely feel free to gush about him ❤

My friend- my friend- there are so many things!! XDD

All the Jim love-under the cut:

He's so many tropes I like crammed into one character!! ^^ :

Creepy/pervy old man ('Maybe I'll come back for ya, huh??' // 'Girls, I got guns.' // Oh god- ).

Lesser of two evils villain (From the 'Plot twist' villain in Final Chapter to the 'Comedic relief' antagonist in Vs Anaconda).

Main villain to fan favourite side character pipeline.

Villain Version of another character (Reba. They shoulda gotten so much ore screen time together for this reason!! ahh)

Crazy old man / Old Loon / Loony tune-ish (Goes 'Here kitty kitty... ' to giant crocs and laughs when he's being hunted by them 😅) / 'Nutbag'. ('What's this- what's this... 'nutbag'... is that what they're calling me in town, now?- ')

... gilf...

'Played by Robert Englund'

Also:

Flannels

SO! MANY! EMOTIONS! AND VIBES! Most characters I notice have a 'resting vibe' that the actors stick with almost the whole time but Jim goes through moods like the weather. One moment he's bashful and guilty, then the next he's intimidating or defensive or threatening, then he could get all excited. I love that! That's so much fun to watch!

For example in Final Chapter when Chloe's accusing him of being a Poacher and he goes through like 10 personalities in one interaction?? He goes from 'Alright fine you got me- i'm a greedy old fart' (Defensive), to 'But right now I'm just trynna save Dennis sorry tree huggin ass and I could really use some help here' (Almost sympathetic). And then two seconds later he's all excited, going on about how he's gonna be rich- then abruptly cuts it off with a glare and that 'You with me??... giddyup.'

ALSO!! When Reba's like 'Can I call you Jimmy?' and he gets all bashful like *shrugs* aw, yeah sure then immediately switches to upset when she calls him a nutbag 😅😅

(Basically, he's crazy)

This is catnip to me XDD The writer in me wants so badly to write characters like that!!

How he talks is so much fun! I love characters who I can read their lines and hear exactly how they were said in my head (Reba is the same here! :D )

He's terrible... but he's also not that bad?? Like, yeah he's a greedy poacher and he may threaten people with a gun now and then 😅😅 But he's kinda nice to Max (Apart from threatening to shoot him 😅😅), going like 'yeah, even you son. in you go' or something when he was putting all the teenagers (?? Eighteen year olds I guess?? I dunno) in the house. And also he thinks Murdoch's crazy for having such little regard for human life. MAN- this means he has SOME!!! good in him!! I'm very excited about this XD Do you know how rare that is in Englund characters?? 😂 Even rarer in characters I like-

He looks right at a giant angry crocodile and says shit like 'Your babies are omelettes now'. I'm sorry, but that was hot-

HE'S CLEVER!

*Gets attacked by a falling snake skin* *Gets left behind by group* *... struggling to get up and brush himself off, absolutely startled and also deeply offended he was just left like that* "... I'M FINE! JUST FINE!" That was the funniest part in the Vs Anaconda XD

When he threatens to sue Murdock?? Like my man, you already tried to sue Nathan and it didn't work, haven't you learned?-

He's also so handsome ^^ <3

#anon i love you for enabling me ^^#Jim Bickerman

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everythingcorn · 22 days ago

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This showed up on my feed so I gave it a little watch, and man! This year had some really fun updates didn’t it…

This year had some pretty creative updates, as well as fun stories and most captivating of all… incredible soundtrack. I love appreciating the cookie run soundtrack whenever I get the chance and I certainly did with this watch :’) There’s so many good cookie themes and they mostly seem to match the characters really well.

Now of course this year wasn’t fantastic; the Season 9 updates were pretty trash in my opinion. The update was very clearly rushed (cough, back to back legendary buffs, cough) and they gave us some pretty trash costumes for Ananas and Pitaya :’( The story continuation of the clash of dragonkind nothing interesting just mid overall. To me it felt like it was reaching a lot specifically for excuses of adding new cookies like Starch and Tofu. I’m all for adding new characters, but when the story is very clearly pushing things in for the sake of a characters existence to make sense just throws everything off. I wished that updates story was pushed more naturally, but I understand that the game has to follow a schedule. We couldn’t have just had this be a costume update because spending has to be evened out, and a gacha only update would be tremendously disappointing.

But besides that, everything else was pretty good. I enjoyed the early updates with the introduction of Astronaut and Xylitol… very nice designs and their story was extremely interesting. I thought that the whole concept of a new series-like chain of updates similar to the TBD was a good idea. The TBD can’t last forever so having something else to look forward to is cool. Space is endless… endless possibilities and excuses… who could possibly turn it down. Also, it’s pretty! But man did it start off STRONG, I hope Astronaut gets a good ending (if ever).

The syrup sauna story was so fun. I loved the new tracks and the cookie skills were very fun as well. Tanghulus skill isn’t too new, but it was designed in a way that’s very refreshing (haha fitting) and I liked watching her go. I wish she returned to meta. The story felt so short yet so long, I liked how relaxed it all was (fitting… ehem).

The Choco Bar and Butter Squid update was surprisingly really good. I had my doubts immediately when I saw Choco’s design simply because it felt a little off to me, but I put it behind me and focused on the gameplay and story and I was pleasantly surprised. I really liked the popcorn buff, I was very happy to get to use her again and i really enjoyed Choco’s skill. The only thing I didn’t like is how both cookies released had more active skills than passive skills, but it wasn’t annoying enough to deter me from enjoying the update. It… probably shouldn’t anyway…

The TBD update… Wow, well, I mean when is a TBD update NOT good XD. Schneeball’s skill was also a nice refresher and it felt a lot newer in terms of mechanics, her theme is absolutely brilliant (I listen to it regularly) and the story with her and Maple Taffy was so funny. The second half was a little more disappointing, Marble Bread’s skill was extremely basic and it didn’t feel like it added much to gameplay at all. The story itself was fine I really enjoyed the slice of life feel of it. A lot of people seemed to be disappointed with the entire update simply because it wasn’t groundbreaking lore updates but I found it fun.

Now, the ACTUAL slice of life update I’ll admit I was barely there for. I didn’t really watch the story but I played through all event levels and I have both cookies maxxed. I still haven’t watched the story and I’m not sure when I will, but what I will comment on are the cookie designs and personalities. I thought it was a major win that we got a legit high school slice of life update, music related no less. When was the last time we got something like this in cookie run? I think the idea to make both cookies based off common school snacks was very clever… and their designs are simple yet recognisable. I wish that they kept their hair a little more true to the snacks, like Strawberry Stick’s (cough pocky cookie) top strands stiff. I thought it looked a little weird bent, but I saw the vision.

The dessert paradise follow up had me shaking and crying and throwing my stuff out of the window it was so GOOD it was so beautiful. The first half had me aching I desperately wanted to know what happened next THAT INSTANT. Panna Cotta releasing felt like a true blessing, and his theme also felt like a blessing. It fits him so well and it feels so unexpectedly so. Black Sugar Swan is also very uniquely designed, I didn’t expect them to make her look like that but I see that they tried to follow the same design language as sugar swan. I didn’t like some of the colours picked and some of the shapes that were picked (I did make my own interpretation) but I did really enjoy her costume. All the costumes released were amazing actually… The story conclusion felt very awkward and unnatural, but I didn’t hate it. I understand that this is just a cookie game and things can’t be too deep, but things really did end in a “friendship is always the answer” way didn’t it :’#

The alien buster update was SO GOOD and I personally think it was very unappreciated. Everything felt like a throwback. Black Noodles theme felt like a throwback, her skill felt like a major throwback, the story felt so refreshing and fun and AHH! It had so much life, the minigames in the event section was so fun… I loved being a secret agent hunting down aliens with Black Noodle and Olive. Seeing the old cyber weirdo gang again made me so happy, I missed Mustard and Wasabi :D. Olive’s skill was mediocre but it fit him well, I liked his trial a lot and I think he’s a charming character. The whole concept of secret agents taking over a noodle shop in order to catch illegal aliens is hilarious, I hope we get a follow-up.

The anniversary update was brilliant you don’t even have to ask me my opinion it should be obvious. CANDY CORN COOKIE! A cookie that was so anticipated for so long there’s a ton of Candy Corn Cookie OC’s and a bunch of people that always wondered when, if ever, we were getting a real Candy Corn Cookie. I’m glad we finally saw the day. She is such a fun character and I think she really added to the story a lot. The plot was simple yet it worked out so well because of all the characters… we got to see Cheesecake play a role and we got too see Birthday Cake too! I was so happy… Everything Pie was totally a surprise, I like what they did with her design and her character, I think the concept of a kitchen sink pie cookie is brilliant and extremely clever. I’m not sure if anyone’s ever thought of that before. And I mean properly! Not just an “Everything Cookie”, that idea is too easy. The conclusion to the story was cheesy yet charming… I will gladly rewatch the story again and again. #NOTBIAS.

Last update of the year! I always say that cookie run christmas updates tend to be the best ones but I’ll admit this one almost missed the mark. It started off slightly disappointing, and it was very unusual too. It seemed like the game schedule changed quite a bit, since we never get legendaries first and so soon too. I wasn’t too upset about it, since we got our first cutie shøta legendary… He felt very bland as a character, didn’t add much to the story besides his presence. I feel like the only one that really brought it all together (and saved the update) was Peppernut, who may I add, was a character I had been waiting for the moment I saw her last year. Her struggles and worries felt so real, and to add on the whole surreal dream aspect to it all really helped her story. I liked how they stayed true to her character, adding onto what little we had of her before as a side character. I liked her little developing friendship with Dreamweaver and I really came to appreciate their relationship by the end of it. The story felt a little awkward and too “friendship is magic-y” by the middle but again, it wasn’t annoying enough to where it bothered me.

I feel like my commentary got longer and longer the more I went on but that’s just because I got more passionate as I kept talking LOL. I hope 2025 has some great updates and I can’t wait to see what the first update of the year will be. Easy bets to place is another Astronaut update, but we just had a legendary and I can only assume each astronaut update will bring a legendary. It might be something totally fresh!

The one update I hope we get is a sugarteara follow-up. Or just wandercrab. I really want an Abyss Monarch buff, hopefully somewhere near or during season 10. If not, it’s okay, but it would be nice to see how it is at the bottom of the sea right now.

That’s all I had to say though, I love this fucking cookie game.

#wrote this at 3am #props if you read it all #thank you!#cookie run

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chatterbox

another short story i wrote for class. kinda gimmicky. i still like it.

[8:38pm] veronica_is_cool: Can we take a break? :3 I wanna hear about your day!

[8:38pm] xlincoln_logx: sure! u first tho

I’ve been talking to this Veronica roleplayer for about 3 months now. We met in one of those open role play rooms on ChatterBox. We ended up talking for hours that night, so we decided to make a private room for the two of us. It’s pretty rare to find anyone roleplaying Veronica these days in the Magical Arrival community, especially since they killed off her character last season. I guess one could say the same about my character, Lincoln. He’s not necessarily a protagonist, but he’s a recurring character that I really related to. That’s really the beauty of roleplaying online – even the most minor characters can be fleshed out by the fans in whatever way they want.

[8:40pm] veronica_is_cool: My day was fine I guess! Today at school some kid tried snorting salt during lunch so that was weird xD!

[8:42pm] xlincoln_logx: thats insane lol i was out from school today tho so i just spent most of my day doom scrolling online as usual

In the 3 months since we’ve started talking, I've gotten really close to her. When we stop role playing we just talk like regular friends. She told me her real name is Lili. She loves to draw, write short stories, and role play Magical Arrival online. What’s cool is she’s the same age as me – or at least I assume so. The thing about online friends is that you can never really discern if they’re telling you the truth about their lives. I took what I could get, though. She still listened to me and treated me like a real friend. Honestly, she was the closest friend I had at the time. But I had never seen her face. Or heard her voice.

[9:16pm] veronica_is_cool: I’m just really shy, Max. Plus, how do I know that when we video call there’s not gonna be some older creep staring at me through me screen ;P (just joking).

[9:18pm] xlincoln_logx: nah i get it, im rlly shy too

[9:21pm] veronica_is_cool: I’m just worried you won’t like what you see.

More than anything, I just wanted her to say yes one day. I wondered what she was so afraid of.

[9:25pm] veronica_is_cool: Max, do you ever feel… out of place sometimes?

[9:25pm] xlincoln_logx: yea like all the time

[9:26pm] veronica_is_cool: How so?

[9:27pm] xlincoln_logx: i mean i dont rlly have friends at my school if thats what u mean.

[9:28pm] veronica_is_cool: Not really. I mean like, do you ever feel out of place in your own body? Like you wish you could just be born different.

[9:30pm] xlincoln_logx: i cant say that i have. why, is that how u feel??

[9:31pm] veronica_is_cool: Sometimes.

I failed to come up with a reply. I had never heard her express something like this before.

[9:45pm] veronica_is_cool: Sometimes I just look at myself in the mirror. I look at my body, my face, my hair… and I don’t feel like I’m me. I have, like, this picture of myself in my brain of how I want people to see me, but I know that will never happen. Really, the only person who sees me the way I want to be seen is you.

[9:46pm] veronica_is_cool: I guess that’s why I’m so afraid to show you my face. I’m sorry.

I didn’t know what to say or what to think. I didn’t know how to interpret what she was trying to say to me. Had she been lying to me about who she was this whole time? I felt a strange anxiety creeping up my body. It started at my legs, and made its home in my stomach. I couldn’t look at my screen for too long or else I’d just fixate on her words and get more afraid of what she was hiding from me. For the first time in a few hours I looked away from the bright glow of my laptop, and let my eyes wander around my room.

I looked at my bed sheets, then my unfolded laundry. I got so deep into talking to her that I forgot to at least clean my room. Then I glanced at my mirror, and held my gaze longer than I expected. I examined my face; my expression. I looked tired, but not unlike myself. I guess I could stand to get a haircut, because it was getting a little long. And I needed to shave the rat-stache I had been growing since 8th grade. I definitely had an awkward appearance, but that never bothered me. I didn’t feel like a stranger in my own body – not at all like Lili said she felt. I looked away.

My eyes then landed on the Magical Arrival poster hanging on the wall across from me. It featured all of the major characters standing at a bus stop together in poses that represented their personalities. On the far right stood Veronica. She was staring down at her shoes with her hands in her coat pockets, acting just as shy as she usually was on the show. As I studied her figure longer, I realized that I actually had a face I’d picture when I would think about Lili.

[10:03pm] xlincoln_logx: we’re friends right lili?

[10:04pm] veronica_is_cool: I’d like to think we are.

[10:05pm] xlincoln_logx: you mean a lot to me. you’re someone i want to stay friends with for a while.

[10:05pm] veronica_is_cool: I feel the same way.

[10:06pm] xlincoln_logx: then would it be too much to ask that you dont keep anything from me?

[10:08pm] veronica_is_cool: It’s not…

[10:09pm] xlincoln_logx: do you trust me enough to show me what ur afraid of?

[10:10pm] veronica_is_cool: It’s not that simple. I don’t think you get what I’m trying to say.

[10:11pm] xlincoln_logx: i think im starting to get it. can we just try and figure it out together?

She didn’t reply for a while. I was afraid she had left entirely. I was afraid I scared her away.

[10:45pm] veronica_is_cool: Okay. Let’s do it.

That anxiety I felt earlier had found its way back into my body. Instead of being in my stomach, it found its way up to my chest and my arms. I was breathing manually now, and I felt a subtle tightness in my shoulders and on the sides of my ribs. My arms felt like they had 20 pound weights on them. I nervously opened up Skype and typed in her username. It felt like the ringing lasted forever, until she finally picked up and all I saw was her profile picture: a drawing of Veronica. “Sorry,” she mumbled, “I’m turning on my camera now.” Her voice sounded strained, like she wasn’t speaking in her natural register. She finally turned on her camera.

It was my friend. For the first time since I met her, I finally saw my friend’s face. She had pale skin, and some acne on her cheeks. Her wide lips were contorted into a nervous smile as we stared at each other, just examining each other’s appearance. Her hair was long and slightly unkempt. It reached the tops of her shoulders, and was a deep brown color. Her blue eyes hid behind thick, rectangular glasses and in the reflection of them I could see myself on her screen. I was surprised to see that she was wearing winehouse style eyeliner, and it was neatly done. Draped over her body was an oversized “Deftones'' t-shirt; her favorite band. She looked undeniably nervous. Her eyes were shooting around the room, trying hard not to look at herself on her own screen. The more I looked at her the more I thought about our conversation. I thought more about why she was afraid to show herself to me. I thought about how much courage it must have taken to do this video call at all. I thought about the trust she put into me to reveal this side of herself. I needed to break the silence. “You know, you look just like her, right?” I said.

“Who?”

“Veronica.”

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nutzo0001 · 2 years ago

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"2007 positivism …" (goofy name, should be better at this, to be changed)

When youve got this urge to yell for/from full lungs "wtf happened to Old Web!", watching as people share their most vile, insane bs publicly , at times in full names, proudly, and they mean it...

All those things that were "forbidden" on interwebs, in Olden days... Full names, private photos, talking to randos, and celebrating own stupidity, when i look, it seems.

And fake-good 00s-10s critical thinking skills lessons. One ear in, other out(?)… "I find it kind of funny, a funny kind of sad", how opinions change like that, more so, without second thought. Path of least resistance innit…

Privacy gone, but you wanted that. If no one, me neither, as it is fine. «Poop alone > poop with friends»

it is surely easier to convince openness over security, than to make people responsible for mistakes from early age, or something similar…

<no names. Just unwritten basis on common sense [hello, do you copy, someone!?] (yeeeeeah, BC I forgot - C.S. was sold over to people who don't give a f + that they therefore don't clash with others much, as those types of people could instead of those who got this habit in actual…

- what the eternal dilemmatic tragedy , when cheap points are more than priceless (surplus) points on morality [or call it as you wish, if you, after all this walltext, can still follow up/me thru]>!

Lol. What else piss me off a little and should not is, how "newbies" , instead of lurking as in times of Old Web, sought to be banned at the first try as they spam and annoy the way in entrance/scene. Rude, if you ask me. Where is fear XD?! Respect. Humility??

No clue if you ever noticed that, or it is just nostalgia and anemoia speaking from me. If it is real issue, struggle - or I am just "old school" (2007/08 on). Imagine that; either ｄａ　ｗｅｉｚ　changed. Or we were like this too. No memories of me being like that tho - or it is just wishful thinking of me, looking from perspective of present day. Either way, got the feels I ever predate that.

Not the Culture, be it y2k, Eternal september, or even before that. What I am talking about is, my idea is, - my politics, ways, views, align more with 60s and 80/90s max 10s, than with situations nowadays. -

On and on, - as bad as it sounds, - what is normal for one is bigotry for another. Simplifications and generalizations surely don't help that. - Mentioning the before about critical thinking, cheap points, "children bad" morality security, so on.

(Worst thing is following The Current thing without further deeper thoughts!!)

spiritually (no Boomer) Hippie DGAF "old soul"

I must've made dozens of "good-faith" fallacies by now XD. Hopes you got me!

We need name for

term that is something like guilty-pleasure, but it is *this* feeling when you feel good, disgusted, question how society and economy still works; and how dissecting everything into some kind of morale render us incapable to do anything that is not (in) any sense "bad"...

if you get this; what i wanted to say

#new term #feelings #names #feels good but yet disgusted

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twilightknight17 · 10 months ago

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This time on P3R: ...it’s October 7th.

I finally got my aggressive dialogue option.

Before we start, I don’t know all of who’s reading these posts, obviously. (I’m guessing at least one person specifically though. ^_^) I can guess that most of you know P3 already. So you know what’s here, and you can probably tell that I’ve been talking around or not emphasizing some of the worst bits of this. Especially around Chidori.

That’s been for the benefit of people who may not know P3, or at the very least, know it mostly from my enthusiasm for Ryoji and/or reading just the opening of Hours. (I’m actually kind of entertained by the idea that there’s people who don’t know P3, who want to read my posts just to basically hear me tell them a story.)

But this next part has something that I cannot downplay. So, I will warn you when I get to it in this post, but we’re going to be confronting major topics of suicide. It does not happen, but it’s going to be talked about. So please mind yourselves if you’re reading along.

Anyway.

To start off with a lighter topic, I have saved all of the dorks who wandered into Tartarus, and have managed to get a solid chunk of money while doing so. After I sell all my bits and bobs, I should have at least 200K, which should keep me going for a while.

Fuuka also warned everyone not to drink the waterfalls in Tziah, which made me laugh for inside-joke reasons.

I find it funny and also kind of brilliant that whatever costume you're wearing is reflected in the menus. That’s a really nice detail.

(They could make however many variations of the menu, but not Hamu--) *shot*

Anyway, things are normal. We head back from Tartarus, sleep, head to school, clean up from the culture festival we didn’t have… Blech. I’m also off to the shops to upgrade my stuff with my new riches, so that means a chance to chat with the antique shop lady.

Seriously, who are you?? Are you a former Kirijo scientist?

Also, it’s good to see that my fave Escapade patron has recovered!

School is as nonsense as ever, as my math teacher is absent, so here’s Mr. Edogawa to ask more things about magic.

...are you SERIOUS. Max rank on BOTH and my academics STILL won’t level up???? My friend made a joke that Pharos is stealing my braincells, but honestly??? Maybe. If he’s taking half my braincells to recover his memories, maybe that’s why I never seem to get any smarter. X’D

I’m still working on social links and hangouts. Ken needs to go visit Sojiro in the future. He seems to have a serious appreciation for coffee. I’m sure Goro would take him to Leblanc. ^_^

Meanwhile, apparently you must be level 7 friends to be asked to join a cult.

I’m not giving you 132000 yen. I JUST stopped being broke. My soul will be fine.

At least Bebe is a lovely person to be around.

We also hang out with Shinji again, because apparently even with max courage, we still can’t finish the burger challenge. So I guess I have to max everything? Ugh. More fun to spend time learning to cook.

...hm. Oh dear. XD

It’s fine. The tempura turned out good, and Shinji tells me about how he learned to cook while working part-time at a restaurant. I’m kind of impressed how close I was on my Shinji characterization in Hours with just movie context.

I love him, and it’s killing me that I can’t social link enough to save him no matter what.

Time for school again, and Mr. Ono has finally reached the Sengoku Era. It’s time to talk about the era of the samurai. It gives me the option to sleep in class, but one, I need more academic points, and I can’t imagine sleeping through this guy’s first lecture on his favorite topic ever.

……..are you KIDDING ME ASDFKJDJGS:LDF

No, no, no. We’re not acknowledging this. We’re moving on. We’re still not smart enough to link with Mitsuru, but we can talk to Yukari now that we’re charismatic! Apparently she’s been waiting this long to apologize for some of the stuff she said on Yakushima. Which, it’s fine. We were all freaking out that night.

...she says “just kidding” after, but like… no she’s not. X’D

So one thing I’ve been missing is that apparently the console in the command room has been freaking out every month or so and recording video. I saw the first two of them because I was prompted to go look, but I haven’t looked since, and now there’s a bunch. One of each member of SEES, I think.

For a sec, I thought we were going to catch Pharos on camera, but no. Just Aigis sneaking into my room. XD I will say, though, that’s the night we supposedly went to Tartarus for Q. So now I’m wondering if it was a shared dream, and we were in meta-space only mentally.

That’s not out of the realm of possibility.

We’re never going to get answers, though, because Atlus gonna Atlus.

It’s definitely creepy that the dorm has cameras in everyone’s rooms. Mitsuru’s tape has her walking around in a towel. Like… Ikutsuki. Seriously. Dude.

I’ve also found my last social link that isn’t Mitsuru! It’s the Tower, a monk who hangs out in Escapade, believes that love and true friendship don’t exist, and is overall unpleasant to be around as he drinks and smokes.

No it’s not! I swear, all of my most unpleasant social links are the ones that are around when everyone else is busy. It’s like they know I don’t want to do them unless there’s no one else available. X’D

I sigh and carry on, because it’s time for the full moon! We’re off to Iwatodai Station to deal with the next two Arcana Shadows, Strength and Fortune. Shinji isn’t with us because he said he’d be late, and Ken isn’t with us because… he wasn’t in his room, and Junpei couldn’t find him. Which seems like something to be worried about, but we gotta deal with the shadows first.

Strength is very pretty, but it’s also shielding Fortune so that Fortune can keep doing its roulette wheel bullshit and throwing buffs and damage all over the place.

I got hit early on by “300 damage to everyone” and lost everyone but Minato, but I was able to recover, and it spent a lot of turns just causing everyone to have upgraded magic damage. Which I think benefited me more than them, because Minato was immune to wind, Yukari resists wind, and everyone else was trucking along admirably.

Strength was more of the tank, so once she went down, Fortune wasn’t too bad, despite another 300-damage spin. Shinji and Ken never showed up, though.

One, for fuck’s sake, at least wait until we’re safely home, Ikutsuki.

Two, the CHILD we are responsible for is MISSING. SIR.

Akihiko realizes it’s October 4th and runs off, and Mitsuru herds the rest of us back to the dorm.

And now.

This is your warning. The next part will discuss suicidal ideation and murder, so if you’d like to skip that, head to the next set of giant bold words and avert your eyes otherwise.

Right, okay. So now that we’re all on the same page, here we go.

Ken and Shinji are at Port Island Station, across the monorail.

Ken has called him here because he recognized Shinji as the reason that his mother is dead. He’s completely devoted his life to making sure that the person who killed her faces justice. And he’s here to take justice into his own hands.

The suffering that this kid has gone through… How much pain, for an eleven-year-old to consider killing himself? But he wants Shinji to die.

Cut to the rest of us, minus Akihiko, back at the dorm. It has finally dawned on Mitsuru what the significance of the date is, and she orders Fuuka to look for all three of them, urgently. Junpei asks what’s so important about today’s date, and Mitsuru reveals that it’s the day Ken’s mom died, two years ago. And that Shinjiro is the reason she’s dead.

They were hunting a rogue shadow in the city, and failed to account for civilians.

...why were Ken and his mom awake during the Dark Hour? Are we just not gonna mention that?

Either way, it was an accident, not a murder, but Ken thinks it was on purpose. And that’s horrible.

The rest of SEES heads for the station when Fuuka finds them, and we cut back to Ken and Shinji.

Shinji isn’t going to fight.

He tells Ken that the only reason not to do this is because taking a life will end up making Ken just like him. He tells Ken that what he did tore him up so badly that he left SEES and started taking suppressants. Ken, angry as hell, just thinks he’s begging for his life, but… He’s not. He doesn’t care about himself. He’s just worried about Ken.

Takaya shows up, because got forbid he not make things worse. He thinks Ken should go for it, because goading a child to commit murder is a great thing!

“Is it not permissible to kill those who are themselves killers?” NO. That just means you’re making more killers to replace them. The cycle of revenge is pointless. Not that Takaya cares, because he’s just going to kill Ken afterwards. He wants to get rid of us, since we keep destroying the shadows, but he calls it “salvation”.

Dude really has no qualms about killing a child.

Shinjiro, realizing that, gets between Ken and Takaya, and Takaya points out that Shinji is dying anyway from the suppressants. This upsets Ken.

The point is that you shouldn’t have been living solely for revenge. :/

Takaya points out that it shouldn’t matter whether he kills Ken or not.

So this kid has been living for two years just for the purpose of killing his mom’s killer and then himself. No wonder he doesn’t want to enjoy food or spend time with us in the dorm. No wonder he asked Minato to take care of Hamburger. He literally wasn’t planning to come back. He was just going to go off and die, and we wouldn’t have found either of them until it was too late.

We’re still almost too late.

But Shinji is not down for child murder and gets a fully-voiced “fuck”, because this situation deserves it.

And Takaya shoots him.

He asks, then, who our group’s navi is. Because we have to have someone as powerful or more powerful than Chidori, since we keep getting to the full moon shadows before Strega. And it’s clear that he wants to know so he can murder them, too. Shinji won’t answer, and Ken speaks up to claim that it’s him. That his navi abilities were the only reason they let a kid join them in the first place. Which isn’t a bad lie, but Ken…!

...he doesn't even try to get away from Takaya. Just shuts his eyes.

The gun goes off, but Shinji has forced himself up, and gets in the way again. He might have made it, but not with a second gunshot at point-blank range. And THAT’S when SEES arrives, and Takaya makes himself scarce. Because he’s too much of a coward to face us all at once. What, unwilling to try to gun down the whole group, you fucking bastard?

(Tumblr crunched the quality as punishment for me trying to cram too many screenshots in the post, so you might have to open the image in a new tab. X''''D)

Everything fades to black as Ken screams.

If you were skipping this section, you’re clear now.

It has been maybe seven hours since Shinjiro died, and we get a classic line that basically sums up how not-okay everyone in this game is.

Somehow, the school already knows. We have an assembly where the principal talks about the horrible sense of loss everyone feels because of this terrible tragedy. But the upperclassmen in the rows in front of us won’t stop muttering about how they didn’t even know an Aragaki was in their class, and how he was probably a delinquent, and how they heard he was shot in a senseless back-alley fight. They turn around to ask if we’d heard of him, but then decide nah, we were only second-years, of course we wouldn’t.

And FINALLY I get to say something rude.

Junpei follows to back me up immediately after, and we get scolded by the teacher. It’s not fair, but… There’s nothing we can do.

No one has seen Akihiko all day, but he shows up to the gym after everyone is gone to talk to Shinji. He… blames himself for this. He says he thought that if he was strong enough, he could protect everyone, the way he couldn’t protect his sister. But now Shinji is gone too.

He promises that from now on, he’s not just going to fight for the sake of getting stronger, and his persona evolves from Polydeuces to Caesar.

It makes sense, in a sad way, that he can’t be Pollux anymore when his brother Castor is gone.

Ow.

Mitsuru calls a meeting, because we have to decide what to do with Ken. But when she sends Aigis to fetch Ken from his room (on the second floor), he’s climbed out the window and is gone.

P3 really is just validating my Hours choices years later, because I had Mitsuru commenting about how they needed to put Goro on the third floor so he wouldn’t climb out a window. I genuinely didn’t realize that she had prior experience informing her decision. XDDDD

Anyway, Fuuka wants to go look for Ken, and Akihiko says we need to give him time. Personally, I’m with Fuuka, because I don’t think we should be letting a kid who is as… uh… emotionally unstable as Ken be on his own. Who knows what he’ll do in the state he’s in?

I can’t go hunting, though, and most of my social links are unavailable due to midterms in a week, so…

You know, I know the social links aren’t tied to main story progression, but dealing with this guy immediately after what happened just makes me angry. Fuck off, dude. Your cult is not saving anyone. Not you, not me, not my senpai who would have been INCREDIBLE to have as a brother. And you’re only doing this because you have to recruit someone for your bullshit.

After Suemitsu leaves, the guy whose son he scammed comes back, pointing him out to a thug that he apparently wants to beat him up. And honestly, if my option is to stop him from getting beaten up or not, I genuinely can’t say I will. I know he’s just an idiot teenager who got sucked into a cult, but I don’t like him.

There’s quite a few of my social links that are like “why am I spending time with this person still?” At least in P5 when people were tricky to link with, I still wanted to make an effort for the perks. (Not that there were any confidants in P5 I genuinely didn’t like. Not even Mishima.) But spending time with Tanaka, or Suemitsu, or Mutatsu? Why? Why keep coming back? :/

Akihiko finds Ken at Port Island Station, processing. Ken points out that his mom’s death was reported as a car accident, and no one ever knew the truth. And no one will know the truth about Shinjiro either.

Akihiko tells him that it’s his choice, but that if he wants to keep fighting, SEES will be there for him. And Ken decides that he’s going to keep going. His persona evolves from Nemesis to Kala-nemi, and he returns to the dorm, much to everyone’s relief.

The midnight hour strikes, and Pharos comes back to chat.

“You look a little tired.” No shit, honey. You’re waking me up at midnight.

We’ve been over this, it’s because you’re stealing my braincells.

We do get to tell him that we lost a friend. He says that he wouldn’t have understood that before, but he gets it now, because he has a friend. Grief and mourning in the face of death makes more sense now that he can fear losing someone.

Thanks, Pharos. You’re important to me, too. It’ll be okay. Just... stay with me. I can’t lose anyone else right now.

#Li plays P3Re #long post #pls heed the warning

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Love Is A Battlefield - Eddie Munson & Steve Harrington

A/N: aaaaaaaahhhh xD omg! so I have no idea how this happened but it did, I ended up mixing two similar but just as awesome requests so I hope you loves like it! :D

Requests - marvelsbitchh asked: I love steddie so much! I have so many ideas lol. Okay so, could i request a steddie x reader imagine where instead of Eddie buying more time with the bats, reader is in Eddie's place and bought more time and got hurt, and Eddie is the one who finds her. He like freaks out and Dustin comes and helps Eddie bring us to the hospital. We survive but we were in a coma and wake up a week later. Both Eddie and Steve are there (i forgot to mention that we're already dating steddie) and get angry and yell at you because they were so scared. They realise reader is crying/upset and realise what they're doing and quickly apologize and just fluff at the end lol. Sorry if this sucked i'm not the best at requesting things

- spideysbae asked: eddie doesn't sacrife himself, the reader does and they send her to the hospital, but since eddie is still wanted for murder he can't go an visit her, so everyday when steve goes to visit her, eddies like "give this to her please, and read it to her" and he gives steve an letter and steve reads to the reader and everyday eddie just writes a new letter and steve reads it to reader, who is in coma or smt like that. Then one day, steve sneaks eddie into the hospital to see her and he just cries into steve's shoulders

Warnings: spoilers for S4E8 (kinda) reader gets badly hurt and is in a coma for a few weeks (also this focuses more on Steddie because of that, principally in Steve trying to keep it together 🥺); Eddie and Steve being mad at the reader for being reckless; angsty but with a happy ending, and let me know if there’s anything I missed :D

Disclaimer: I don’t own Stranger Things :D gif isn’t mine :)

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Love Is A Battlefield

We are strong No one can tell us we're wrong Searching our hearts for so long

“Holy shit, holy shit, holy shit!” you muttered to yourself as you pedaled faster than you’ve ever had before.

You had no idea how you found yourself here. Okay, that wasn’t true. You knew why you were riding this bike as if your life depended on it. Because it did… literally depended on it. You went over the plan a million times. You divided into groups. Lucas, Max, and Erica, group one. Back in the normal Hawkins (if you could call Hawkins normal), at Vecna’s house. You, Eddie, and Dustin, group two. In the Upside down, at the trailer park, creating a distraction and buying more time. Nancy, Steve, and Robin, also Upside Down, but at Vecna’s house. Your instructions were simple enough. Stay there, buy some time, if things go south, go back. Simple enough, right? But no, after Dustin made it back, you turned to look at Eddie, and before you knew it your legs were running out of the trailer, locking the door from outside and leaving him screaming at you.

“Jesus Christ! Princess, get the fuck back here!” you could still hear Eddie screaming but you were getting further away.

And then it dawned on you. You didn’t really have a plan. All you were thinking was that Eddie and Steve needed to get back safely. And for that, you needed more time. And for that, you needed Eddie to stay back and be safe. When you were far enough, you stopped. You got down from the bike, grabbed the shield Eddie made for you, and the bat Steve made for you. And you saw them come. It was more than you remembered. You felt your heart racing faster than you had before but there was no backing down now. You gripped your weapon and shield tighter and you were ready for whatever had to come. It shouldn’t be that bad, right? Steve got bitten and he was okay. Although there weren’t as many. And there were more of you to deal with them. But whatever, as long as your boys were fine… that’s what matters. You had to do this for them. Eddie and Steve were always protecting you and taking care of you. And now, you have to take care of them. So you braced yourself for what was coming.

“COME ON!” you yelled as the cloud of demo-bats got closer, circling around you. You managed to swing a few away. But, as you feared, there were so many. “Fuck!”

You felt them attacking your left arm. Then your leg. Then your other arm. And then… then they were all over you. You couldn’t do anything else. Some of them were pulling at you so hard, you felt your arms were gonna be ripped apart. Some of them were eating away at your sides. As you yelled and cried in pain, you tried to think of something to get your mind off it. You were doing this for Eddie and Steve. Steve and Eddie, who you loved and who loved you. Eddie and Steve, whose eyes you’ll probably never look at again. Whose hands will never run down your body now being eaten by demo-bats. Whose hands you’ll never get to hold again. And then, all of the sudden, everything stopped. You saw the demo-bats fall down to the floor at once. Everything hurt. Everything.

“(Y/N)!” you heard a distant yell. You opened your eyes but everything seemed to be spinning around. You were terrified to look down at your body because you were certain that everything was going to look even worse than how it felt. “Love!” Eddie fell to his knees next to you. “Princess, look at me” he cried, holding you in his arms and pulling you towards him.

“E-Eddie” you smiled, just barely. You didn’t know you still had it in you. But Eddie could always make you smile.

“Shh, listen to me, you’re going to be okay, love” he told you. But you could see tears in his eyes. Eddie never cried. No, that was a lie. Steve never cried. Eddie always did. “Steve is coming, princess and we’re going to get you out of here, I promise!”

“Eddie, what the fuck!” Dustin said, catching up to you two. “Holy shit!”

“Dustybun” you chuckled, feeling the horrible taste of blood coming out of your mouth. “S-sorry, only Suzie calls you that” you coughed.

“Princess, s-stop talking, love” Eddie said, grabbing anything he could to stop the bleeding in every part of your body. “Dustin, help me get her back to the trailer” he begged, helping you up but regretting it the second he heard your piercing scream. “I’m sorry, love, I’m so sorry, but I need to get you back” he said, trying his hardest to stop the tears.

“I’m s-sorry, love” you said, looking at Eddie. “I d-didn’t mean to make you c-cry-”

“Eddie!” you heard a distant voice. It couldn’t be Steve, could it? They were still too far away. “(Y/N)!”

“Steve!” you heard Eddie yell. “STEVE!”

“EDDIE!” Steve ran as fast as he could and he felt his heart drop when he saw you between Eddie and Dustin. “Eddie, what happened?” he asked, finally reaching the three of you.

“S-Stevie” you smiled weakly. At least you got to see him one last time. Your eyes then started feeling extremely heavy.

“No, no, no, princess! Open your eyes” you could still hear Eddie.

“Sweetheart, look at me! I’m here!” you heard Steve’s voice even closer.

“I just w-wanted to-” you whispered. “I’m sorry” you said. “I love you” was the last thing you said before everything turned black.

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“Steve, please” Eddie begged for what seemed like the millionth time.

“Eddie, love, we’ve been through this” Steve said, walking over to him. “I can’t let you go” he said, feeling his heart break by the way Eddie looked at him.

“But, Steve! It’s been a week! I haven’t seen her in one week!” he cried. “I can’t-! I can’t take it anymore! I feel like I’m going insane!” he snapped. Steve walked over to his boyfriend and grabbed his hands.

“Eddie, Eddie, love” he said, brushing his hair away from his face and cupping his face between his hands. “I know, love. I know you’re worried, and I know that you miss her” he said, brushing his thumb against his cheek, wiping away his tears. “But you still haven’t been ruled out for the murders” he said, making Eddie cry even more. “They’re still looking for you-”

“But you said Hopper would help-!”

“I know, love and he is doing everything he can” Steve promised. “But until that, I can’t let them find you” Steve said, taking a deep breath and kissing his forehead. “I need you to stay here” he pleaded. “I need you to be safe” he said, kissing him sweetly. “I promise she is going to be okay, and when she wakes up, we’re going to bring her home and then you’re going to take care of her, alright? But for now, you have to stay here, love, please” Steve said, with a small, single tear falling down his cheek which Eddie quickly wiped away.

“Okay, okay, love” Eddie said, hugging him closer. “I’ll stay here” he said, kissing Steve’s cheek.

The truth was, both of them were on edge already. They were able to bring you back, but just barely. You had been in the hospital, in a coma, for a week now. Eddie felt extremely anxious every single day that went by without being able to see you. But he knew Steve was right. Even if Hopper was back and he said he would help in proving Eddie’s innocence, it was still dangerous for him to leave the safehouse he had put them in.

And Steve. Steve was holding it together as best as he could. He was terrified of losing either one of you. He didn’t know when you were going to wake up, because he kept telling himself that you had to wake up. And he was also frightened that something would happen to Eddie.

“I’m sorry, love” Steve said, burying his face on Eddie’s shoulder, just needing him as close as possible. “It’s just-”

“I know” Eddie stroked his back, and kissed his head. “It’s a lot, love” he whispered. “I just miss her” he whispered.

“I miss her too” Steve said, pulling away and they smiled briefly at each other.

Eddie pulled away and walked over to the coffee table, grabbing a couple of the sheets scattered all around. Both of them silently smiling at the thought that you would have scowled at them already for the mess.

“Could you uh-” he said, giving the page to Steve. “Could you maybe read this for her?” he asked, looking at Steve with his big, brown, doe eyes.

“You wrote to her?” Steve asked, feeling his heart melting a little.

“It’s stupid, I know I just… want her to know that I’m thinking of her” Eddie said, looking away. Steve placed his hand underneath his chin and made him look up again before he kissed him.

“It’s not stupid, love” he assured him. “She would love it” he said. “And you don’t mind me reading it?” he smirked.

“Well, given that the first page is just me complaining about dealing with you and your horrible cooking by myself, I actually kind of need you to read it, because I didn’t know how to bring it up” he chuckled and Steve slapped his arm before Eddie kissed him.

“I’ll be back in a few hours, tops, okay?” Steve promised and Eddie nodded, kissing him once more.

“Okay” Eddie replied as Steve started to make his way outside.

“While I’m out, it wouldn’t hurt if you finally cleaned up the place” he yelled back.

“Love you, Harrington!”

“Love you too, Munson!”

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“Henderson?” Steve asked, walking into your room. He felt his heart breaking all over again every time he saw you.

“Hey” Dustin said, smiling at him as he replaced some of the flowers on your window. “I was just… visiting Max and… thought I’d stop by” he said.

“How’s she doing?” Steve asked, feeling a little guilty that she was just a couple of rooms down and he hadn’t seen her in a few days.

“She’s hanging in there” Dustin nodded before looking at you. “How's she doing?”

“Same” Steve sighed, walking over to him.

“She’s gonna be okay, Steve” Dustin insisted. “R-right?”

“Yeah” Steve smiled at Dustin. “Of course, man” he said, unsure if he was trying to convince himself more than Dustin.

“How’s uh… the um, banished?”

“He’s hanging in there too” Steve said, sitting down on a chair next to your bed. “He wanted to come” he told Dustin. “And I get it… he misses her” he said.

“Hey, maybe there’s a way we can get him in” Dustin suggested.

“Dustin, but, I know you’d love to help, but no. There’s no way-!”

“No, wait, hold on, give me about ten minutes okay? I just have to talk to Lucas about something” he said, rushing out of the room.

“No, Henderson! Wait-” Steve tried, but Dustin was already out of the room. Steve sighed, turning back to look at you.

He hadn’t been alone with you ever since you were all back. There was always someone else in the room. If he was being honest with himself, he couldn’t really face you. Seeing you so defenseless in that bed made him want to cry every single time. He didn’t want to sound selfish, but he hoped that Eddie could come too. Either to be there with him or just to take turns sometimes because his heart just shattered having to look at your unconscious form on that bed.

“H-hi, sweetheart” he said, turning to you. He wasn’t sure what to do next so he grabbed Eddie’s letter. “Eddie wrote something for you” he smiled sweetly. “Apparently it is about my crappy cooking but…” he laughed a little. “Let’s see what he wrote, okay?”

He grabbed your hand as he started reading the pages and he wasn’t sure if it was his imagination, or the fact that he was sleep deprived, but he could swear that he felt you squeeze his hand back.

“Steve?”

Steve jumped awake on his seat when he felt someone put their hand on his shoulder. He had fallen asleep at some point. He looked around and saw that it was almost dark outside. Shit.

“I’m up!” he replied quickly, looking at Mrs. Byers standing there. “Oh, hi, Mrs. B-” he said, politely as he got up and greeted them.

“Oh, Steve, please, I’ve told you a million times to call me Joyce” she said, politely.

“Right, Joyce” Steve smiled.

“How’s our girl doing?”

“She’s… hanging in there?” Steve sighed.

“What about you?” Joyce asked.

“Well… same answer?” he chuckled.

“You know, sweetie, you don’t always have to keep it together” Joyce said, placing her hand on his cheek.

Steve wasn’t sure what it was. The fact that his girlfriend was lying unconscious on a bed and he had no idea when, or if you were going to wake up. The fact that his boyfriend is being hunted by the same fucking town that he helped save and he can’t leave the house. Or the fact that this is the closest thing to a mother relationship he has felt in God knows how long. But Steve threw his arms at Joyce and felt his eyes watering.

“I’m sorry” he sobbed on her shoulder. “I j-just- I can't-”

“You don’t have to apologize” Joyce said, hugging him back. “This is a lot for you to take on” she said, sweetly. “She’s going to be okay, and Jim is doing everything he can to help Eddie” she assured him. “And we’re all here for you” she said. “Those kids love you three so much” she chuckled, pulling away and wiping Steve’s tears. “Here” she said, grabbing the cooler she brought with her. “We got you guys something, so you don’t have to worry about cooking or any of that” she said, giving it to Steve.

“Thank you, Mrs.- uh- Joyce” Steve said, gratefully. “Apparently, my cooking sucks so” he laughed. “Eddie’s gonna be really happy” he told her.

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“Alright, on my signal” Steve and Eddie heard Dustin through their walkie-talkie.

“Henderson, are you completely sure about this?” Steve asked, looking back at Eddie, who was lying on the floor of the car, hiding from everyone’s view. A couple of days more had passed and Steve’s kids had come up with a plan to sneak Eddie in the hospital so he could see you.

“Oh, my God! We have been through this a million times, Steve!”

“You know what, Henderson? I am not in the mood for this. Forgive me if I’m a little defensive, but if this goes wrong, they might take my boyfriend away, okay? So, as I said, the humility now and then, it wouldn’t hurt you!” he snapped, frustrated.

“Love, he’s just trying to help” Eddie said, grabbing Steve’s hand.

“Sorry” they heard Dustin on the other side. “I get it, okay? But I promise this will work” he insisted. “Will, Lucas, and Mike are already in place” he continued. “So, just wait for the signal. You both know what to do” he finished.

“Okay, you ready?” Steve asked, looking back at Eddie. “You know what to do, right? You meet Mike and then-”

“Steve, we’ve been through this, love” Eddie said, getting closer and kissing him. “I’ll be okay” he assured him. “I just need to see her” he begged.

“I know” Steve said, kissing his forehead. “See you on the other side?”

“See you on the other side” Eddie nodded, kissing him quickly again before they went their separate ways.

Steve kept pacing around your room after what felt like hours waiting for his signal. While Lucas and Will were creating a distraction from everyone at the reception, Dustin and Mike were putting Dustin’s plan into motion to sneak Eddie inside to see you. His part was easy. He just had to go into your room, as he always did, and then wait for the signal to go into the bathroom, behind the shower curtain, where there was a loose ceiling tile. How the kids did, and knew all of this? He didn’t even want to know. But he would be forever grateful if everything worked out. Steve saw the flashlight on the window from the room in front of yours. Max’s room. That was Erica. So he went over to the bathroom and did what he had to do, letting Eddie fall from the ceiling.

“Hi, love” Steve smiled as he helped him down.

“Hey” Eddie smiled nervously.

“You ready?” Steve said, holding his hand and Eddie nodded.

Steve led Eddie out of the bathroom and into your room. As soon as Eddie’s eyes laid on you, his eyes watered, his heart raced to what felt like a million beats per minute, and his hands started shaking.

“Oh my God!” he whispered, kneeling next to your bed and grabbing your hand. “What’s all-?” he started. “Why is she hooked on so many things?”

“It’s so they can monitor her and make sure that nothing is wrong, Eddie” Steve said, grabbing his shaking hand.

“She- she looks” he sobbed. “She looks so fragile, Steve” he cried, getting up and burying his head on Steve’s shoulder, unable to look at you any longer.

“I know, love” Steve said, feeling a couple of tears fall from his eyes as he looked at you.

“How can you do this every day?” he whispered. “Y-you were right. I shouldn’t have come… I don’t like seeing her like this” he cried.

“She’s gonna be okay, love” Steve said, kissing his temple. “She’s gonna get better, and we’re gonna bring her home, and Hopper is going to help us with your case and we’re gonna be okay” he said, pulling him closer. “I promise” he said, smiling weakly at Eddie.

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You hadn’t expected to wake up. At all. You were certain that you would never see Steve, or Eddie, or any of your friends ever again. But you did. And being back, was not at all what you thought could be. The day you woke up, Steve and Eddie weren’t there. You weren’t alone. Jonathan, Nancy, and Dustin were with you. As soon as you woke up, Dustin called Steve at Family Video and he came over as soon as he could. But you noticed something different about him. He would not make eye contact with you. When he held your hand, he squeezed it a little too tight, but you thought it was just because you were still recovering. Either way, another thing was that he was never alone in the room with you, which you didn’t really mind, but you thought by this point, you would have been able to talk to him. Especially since you were caught up about Eddie still being wanted and not being able to be there. And you missed him so much.

The day you were released finally came. Steve was supposed to come get you after he was done with work but since Joyce was there, visiting Max with Will, she offered to give you a ride and you couldn’t get out of there fast enough back home to your boys. So you accepted. The ride felt longer than anything had in your life but you didn’t care. You were finally back. Patched up and wounded, but back.

“Are you sure you don’t need me to come help settle you in?” Joyce asked once she parked on the driveway of the small cabin where you saw Steve’s car.

“Really, you’ve done more than enough, Joyce” you said, giving her a big hug.

“Okay, call me if you need anything else, alright?” she smiled as you got out of the car.

“Thanks, Joyce” you said, closing the door. “Bye, Will” you said, hugging him as he got off the car to get into the front seat.

“Bye, (Y/N)” Will said before getting in and them driving away.

You took a deep breath and started making your way up to the door. You could hear Steve and Eddie discussing something inside but you couldn’t really make up the words. You wanted to open the door but then you remembered this was a different house. This wasn’t your old home, and it was most likely locked because of Eddie’s situation. So, instead, you knocked.

“Who’s that?” Eddie said, looking at the door, as Steve felt his heart drop.

“Go to the room” he instructed.

“Steve-”

“Now, Eddie” he said, widening his eyes at him and Eddie nodded, walking away. Steve made his way over to the door with his bat nearby just in case.

“S-Steve?”

He dropped the bat. He knew that voice. He heard Eddie coming out of the room in less than a second

“Is that-?”

“Eddie?”

It didn’t take long for Steve to open the door and reveal you on the other side.

“(Y/N)!” they said at the same time, standing there, not doing anything else. They both seemed afraid to even touch you. Steve scanned the area just quickly enough to make sure nobody else was there before he pulled you inside.

“Hi” you smiled at them, expecting hugs, kisses, or at least a smile, but nothing came.

“How did you get here?” Steve asked, still looking back just to make sure nothing else happened.

“Joyce gave me a ride. She was visiting Max and the doctor said it was okay for me to be discharged and-”

“I told you I was going to come get you in a few hours, I just came over to change” Steve said, getting upset. Your heart broke a little.

“Steve-” Eddie tried.

“You should have called me” Steve added.

“I didn’t… know what time you got off work and I thought I could um-” you said, grabbing Eddie’s letters from your bag and smiling back at them. “I thought I could make lunch for us” you told them. “Joyce even stopped by the grocery store so I could get everything to make your favorite” you smiled at them.

“Y-you shouldn’t be doing all this work, princess” Eddie said, grabbing the things from you. His heart breaking at the sight of the bandages on your arms. But you could only concentrate on one thing. Princess. You hadn’t heard that in so long. “I’ll make lunch, you just get some rest, okay?” he smiled weakly at you and made his way over to the kitchen.

“Oh” you said, feeling dejected. “O-okay” you told him, trying not to sound so upset.

Steve sighed, running a hand through his hair. “I’m gonna go take a shower” he said, kissing your head quickly and leaving towards the bedroom.

You couldn’t help but feel your heart breaking a little. Something was off. These weren’t your boyfriends. They didn’t even seem happy to have you back. You tried to shake the feeling off and decided to follow Eddie to the kitchen.

“Hi” you smiled, shyly.

“Hey, princess” Eddie smiled at you, before going back to cooking. “You’re supposed to be resting” he told you.

“I feel very well rested” you said, walking closer to him. “Can I help?”

“I got it-”

“Eds” you said, making him look at you. He could see the pleading in your eyes. You were giving him that look that he knew he couldn’t say no to. “Please?”

“Yeah, okay” he sighed.

You grabbed some of the vegetables from the bag and a knife so you could start mincing. You didn’t remember the last time you felt shy around Eddie or Steve. They had always made you feel so comfortable, and love, and save. And now, you felt like you were walking on eggshells. They hadn’t even hugged you. And you missed their hugs so much. But there was so much tension in the air. All you wanted to do was jump into their arms and have them kiss you and spoil you and cuddle you like they used to. You couldn’t even find the courage to ask Eddie how he was. You have no idea what had been going on here since you all came back from the Upside Down but you knew something wasn’t right. You were so lost in your own thoughts, you didn’t even notice Steve coming back into the kitchen.

“I thought Eddie said he would cook” he said, looking at you.

“Uh, I just wanted to help” you tried.

“You should be resting” Steve said, sternly.

“Steve” Eddie warned him as you tried your best to act as if nothing was going on and kept on mincing the mushrooms. But, without meaning to, you cut your finger.

“Shit” you muttered, making your way over to the sink. And that’s when all hell broke loose.

“What happened?” Eddie asked, turning to you.

“Nothing, I just cut myself, is not a big deal” you said putting your finger under water and grabbing one of the towels.

“For fuck’s sake! This is why Eddie told you he would cook!” Steve snapped, as the two of them walked over to you. “Why can’t you ever just listen?!”

“It was an accident” you frowned, confused. “And it’s not even that deep, I just need a bandage-”

“That’s not the point” Eddie said, in a lower tone, but equally angry. “The point is that you just keep doing whatever the fuck you want and you keep getting hurt” he said, glaring at you.

“E-excuse me-?”

“Oh don’t play dumb now!” Steve chuckled angrily. “Not after that shit you pulled on the Upside Down!”

“W-what are you talking about-?”

“What are we talking about?” Eddie said, as he still grabbed your hand, cleaned it up, and place a bandage around your finger. “This” he said, pulling your hand up and pointing at your bandages. “This is what we’re talking about! You almost got yourself killed!”

And then it made sense. They were mad, no, they were furious at you, for what you did.

“I didn’t-” you tried, but you felt your throat tightening. “I just thought-”

“You thought?” Steve snapped. “No, you weren’t thinking!” he said, getting closer to you. “We told you to do one thing. One” he said, with a few tears escaping his eyes. “Don’t play the hero” he said.

“I w-wasn’t trying to-”

“YOU STILL DID!” Steve yelled. Steve never yelled at you. Or Eddie. “We told you that if things went south you had to come back here, with Eddie and Dustin! And you decided to leave! You decided to lock Eddie in the trailer and run out there so all the fucking bats could have a fucking feast on you!”

“N-no, it wasn’t like that-”

“It doesn’t matter!” Steve cut you off. “It doesn’t matter because that’s what happened!”

“Steve” Eddie tried, knowing this could only get worse.

“No! She doesn’t get to do this!” Steve pulled away from Eddie and glared at you. “You don’t get to come here and act as if nothing happened!”

“That’s not what-”

“You’re not the one that had to wake up to Eddie screaming from nightmares of you literally dying in his arms!” he said, pointing at Eddie who looked away from you. “You’re not the one that had to see one of the people you love the most, unconscious in a hospital bed hooked to so many machines and having no idea if you were going to wake up!” he continued, and you now noticed Eddie was crying as well. You made them both cry. You felt your heart breaking into a million pieces. “I had to come and find you almost dead in Eddie’s and Dustin’s arms” he explained. “We had to carry you all the way back and then I had to drive you over to the hospital, trying to make sure that you wouldn’t bleed to death” he said, with tears falling down his eyes as you tried your hardest to contain yours. “I had your blood all over me” he kept going as more angry tears kept falling down his cheeks. “I heard you die” he said, with his voice shaking and you felt your heart drop. Nobody had told you that. And you were certain that Eddie didn’t know about it either because his eyes widened in surprise, looking at Steve. “When I brought you in, you died for like a minute and they had to bring you back. And I heard it” he said, crying harder. “And I couldn’t do anything because you had lost so much blood and I don’t have your blood type but Eddie does, but he couldn’t be there because he had to stay hidden” he yelled.

“Steve, you never told me that” Eddie said, with his deep, quiet voice, pulling his boyfriend closer.

“I didn’t want to” Steve muttered. “You were already blaming yourself” he said, making you feel even worse. “He was blaming himself for not being able to save you” Steve glared at you a little. “He blamed himself for what you did” he told you.

You finally had let your tears fall. You couldn’t take it anymore. You failed them. Eddie was blaming himself, having nightmares, and he couldn’t even try to get back to a normal life because he had to stay hidden. And Steve. Steve had tried to keep everything together. Like he always did. And you weren’t there for him. You left him. Your plan failed. You did what you thought you needed to do to help them and get them out of there safe, but instead, you broke them.

“I’m s-sorry” you said with a shaky, quiet voice, making Steve and Eddie look back at you but you didn’t dare look back at them. You remembered how afraid you were when Eddie had disappeared after Chrissy’s death and you couldn’t find him, and you had no idea if he was okay. And you remembered how terrified the first time you went to the Upside Down and found Steve being eaten by the same demo-bats you tried to fight. And you did the same thing to them. To both of them at the same time. You found yourself squatting down on the kitchen floor as tears ran down your cheeks. All you wanted was for them to hug you and to make everything that happened in the past weeks go away. But you didn’t even feel worthy of their hugs anymore. You didn’t feel worthy of their love anymore. “I’m so sorry” you said, pulling your knees to your chest. “I didn’t mean to do that” you said, wiping away your tears. “I just got scared that we were running out of time” you admitted. “And I didn’t want you to get hurt” you said, still looking at the floor. “Either one of you” you told them. “I love you two so much a-and” you stuttered. “You always take care of me and you always protect m-me and I just…” you sighed. “I just wanted to help” you said, hugging yourself. “I just wanted both of you to be safe” you cried a little harder, resting your head on your knees.

And then… then you felt it. You felt two pairs of arms wrapping around you and pulling you to them. You were back. You were back in their arms and you were safe. You were all safe. You felt soft kisses being pressed against your head and forehead as you kept crying.

“Shh, it’s okay, princess” Eddie said, stroking his back.

“N-no, it’s not” you complained, still not wanting to let go of them. “Y-you were right” you said. “I know what I d-did was reckless a-and stupid and I w-wasn’t thinking, and now I have these stupid ugly scars all over me” you sobbed. “I just w-wanted for you to be okay and instead I hurt you and I made you worry about me, a-and I made you have nightmares a-and-”

“No, sunshine” you heard Steve, pulling you a little closer to him. Sunshine. You also hadn’t heard that in so long. “I’m so sorry” he said, kissing your head. “I didn’t mean to snap at you” he said, holding your hand in his. “I know you were just doing what probably any of us would have done” he told you.

“We were just scared” Eddie said, shedding a few tears again. “We thought we had lost you. But now we have you back” he said, giving you a peck on the lips.

“We missed you so much” Steve cried, kissing you softly as well.

“I m-missed you too” you said, resting your head on Steve’s shoulder as you grabbed Eddie’s hand, playing with his rings. “I’m glad you two are okay” you muttered silently as Steve kissed the side of your head while Eddie kissed your hand. “So, my plan kind of worked” you said, looking up at Eddie who let out a small chuckle.

“Don’t push it, princess” he warned you.

“I really am sorry” you told them, looking up at them.

“We know, sunshine” Steve said, hugging you tighter. “So are we. And we’re just happy you’re okay” he said as they got up, helping you up with them.

“You want to help me finish lunch?” Eddie smiled, pulling you closer.

“No” Steve said, pulling you over and kissing your forehead. “We’ll make lunch. You can just stay here and relax” he said, going back to Eddie.

“But Eddie hates your cooking” you smiled and Steve placed his hands over his heart.

“Alright, it’s not funny anymore” he glared at you and then at Eddie.

“Yes, it is, love” Eddie said, giving him a peck on the lips.

“Hey, sweetheart, I have a question” Steve said as he pulled everything out of the bag. “Why didn’t you get anything to make your favorite?”

“Oh, I just wanted to cook for you two today” you smiled at them.

“Well, lucky for you, we actually made your favorite for desert” Eddie said, grabbing plates filled with everything sweet that you loved so much. You felt your heart flutter and your eyes water again but for a completely different reason. “You didn't think we weren’t going to spoil our girl when she came back from the hospital, right?” he smiled at you and you went over to kiss each one of them.

“Thank you” you said, as Steve hugged you closer to him. “One question, though” you said. “Did Steve cook it or-?”

“Okay, now it’s starting to hurt!” Steve said, glaring at you playfully. But he couldn’t help but smile at you and leaned down to kiss you again. “I love you” he said, looking at you and then at Eddie.

“Me too” Eddie said walking over and kissing you both as well.

“Me three” you said, snuggling back in their arms.

The End

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I have a new Steddie idea that is very much angst filled and it hit me freaking hard out of nowhere in the shower. Okay I say pit of nowhere but I was listening to my music and Master of Puppets came on (right after She's Always in My Head by Prince - I love variety XD) and the idea hit me.

Working title is Twisting Your Mind (part of a lyric from Master of Puppets)

Anyways so Canon happens more or less and Steve is feeling like he's just drifting from day to day barely hanging on to himself. He knows he's going to break, to burst, and it's going to be ugly but he's trying to hold it together for everyone. But he feels one bad day from just breaking and crying and never stopping and maybe all the paranoia, the bone-deep sadness and self-hatred, the anger and the tiredness would go away. But no, he powers through it and he does what he does best and he holds it all in and all together.

Steve has been blaming himself about Eddie, he fully believes his words provoked the guy to sacrifice himself, he blames himself for Max's condition, for Lucas's face and Erica's nightmares and the bruises she obtained. He's exhausted, he hasn't been sleeping much because of the nightmares that had the fiercest grip on him and because at the slightest sound he would wake up and have to check all the doors, the windows, the lights.

He was running on Jolt Cola and a prayer!

Then what he feared happened, he had his bad day.

It had started out fine. He had two nightmares but it was fine. He picked up Robin and Dustin to take to school, but when he got Robin he saw hoe tired she was and how stressed she looked and so he suggested a movie night to take a night off studying and worrying about her Senior year. But it was like Trisha's Party 2.0, she gave him a cruel laugh and said, "I know you graduated skating by but I actually want to be proud of my grades Steve! I don't have time for your distractions!"

And at least she didn't call him Bullshit but it hurt all the same so he just apologized and he picked up Dustin, they hadn't spoken the entire ride there. Dustin got in and immediately Steve knew he was in a bad mood and he didn't know why. So he just let boy tell him about what he and Susie were working on, but Steve made another mistake as soon as they got to the school. He asked a question about the project and Dustin had just sighed this put-upon sigh and said, "C'mon Steve, I know you're an Idiot but I thought you could at least listen."

Then he left Steve just sitting in his car. As did Robin but she slammed his door and he couldn't even muster up the strength to scold her for it. All he could do was pull himself together and head to work. Work was awful, people belittled him, yelled at him and he was just so done with the day but he always visited Max. So no matter how much he wanted to go home and just sleep, he went to the hospital. Lucas was of course there, and it was pretty obvious the boy hadn't even gone to school. They sat there not saying anything for a while but then Lucas just started rambling about everything and Steve listened, Steve was there.

But then Steve made the mistake of giving advice, he just wanted Lucas to go home, eat, shower, get some sleep. He knew how hypocritical that sounded but he was worried and he stated so. It made Lucas angry, to the point of tears. Next thing Steve knew he was being yelled at, the words were buzzing in his ears. One word stuck out and it was the one he hated most: bullshit.

After that he didn't know what happened. He remembered leaving getting to his car but after that he wasn't sure, all he did know was that he had made it back to his house and he flew into a rage. He broke things. He's pretty sure he punched a hole in a wall. His room took the most damage, he vaguely remembered writing on the walls but it was the after he hardly remembered. There was a noise and he had his bat but something tackled him and he was out.

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I always end up making these ideas drabbles in some way XD anywho, Eddie has been resurrected by Vecna and he is the Upside-down version of a Vamp. As much as Vecna wanted to go in guns blazing and just send Eddie to cause as much destruction and distress and he could he knew he had to be smart about everything this time around. He thought he had been smart last time. But the same group of people once again were a thorn in his side even if they hadn't know he was behind every previous incident.

So he had Eddie spy on every single one of them to see who would be the best to strike first and that's when he felt something interesting when Eddie was near the Harrington boy. It was the same feeling he got with Eddie. This boy had been affected by his demobats, he didn't know why it was dormant but it was there and if they awakened it, he would have another creature like Eddie under his control. He had planned to kill the boy, truly he should have targeted him last time, the boy was basically a martyr and most likely wouldn't have told anyone what was going on until it was too late. He would have had his four gates easily.

The boy held so much anguish and anger and guilt inside himself, it was beautiful. But he cared so much, too much and One knew he could use that. He let Eddie keep his negative emotions, he twisted his feelings for that silly group of his but when he saw Harrington he knew he could use Eddie's attraction to the boy so he let him have those feelings once more. So Eddie is instructed to kidnap him and it's easy given the delicious day Harrington had.

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Basically Steve is kidnapped and taken to the Upside-down and to Eddie's lair where he was instructed to keep him and persuade him to join them. Steve is happy Eddie is alive but heartbroken that he left him there to be taken over by Vecna but Eddie keeps telling him he doesn't blame him and Eddie truly doesn't.

He knew Steve didn't want to leave him, he had heard it and he and One had been watching Steve's dreams and memories and it was very apparent that the last thing the boy wanted to do was leave him behind.

So even though Eddie is sweet to him, calling him nicknames, he's also telling Steve how awful the others treat him and how him and One would never treat him like that. Eddie would treasure him, One would appreciate him if he only joined them. Of course Steve denys, but Eddie doesn't get mad, he knows Steve expected him to but he knows he'll wear him down.

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The Party notices Steve's absence after school when he doesn't pick them up and Robin had calmed down enough to the point she realized what she had said that morning and wanted to apologize but when Steve hadn't shown up she felt worse than worse. Nancy and Jonathan have to pick them up and they decide to go to Steve's to apologize, the others tag along because they're worried. Will and El are on edge because something doesn't feel right.

Lucas is already there knocking on the door begging to be let in, Hopper pulls up because a neighbor called about Lucas which pissed Hopper off but he goes to see what's wrong. They all go into the house and their worry does not go away. They see the state of the house and just are in awe. Robin wants to cry, Dustin and Lucas aren't any better but then a little old lady came to the door and though Robin had never met her she knew who she was immediately because of Steve's description of her.

"Officer Hopper! Well if it hasn't been a lifetime since I've seen you here. What is the matter is Stevie okay?" It was Mrs. O'Connor, Steve had told Robin she was the only nice neighbor he had and she often brought him casseroles.

Hopper was always quick on his feet, "Oh everything is fine Mrs. O'Connor. Just seemed like Steve headed out of town with a friend and forgot to tell the kids."

"Oh that boy, he's always been one to do things on his own hasn't he? You said he was going out of town? You don't know if it he's going to go see that therapist I recommended him, do you?"

"Therapist?" Hopper asked what they were all thinking.

"Oh yes. Poor dear's nightmares have just been truly horrendous, Frank and I nearly called you over with how bad some of them sounded. I don't think that Boy's slept a wink. But oh, listen to me gossiping like a girl in school. Just let him know I made him this casserole will you Sweetie?" And with that she was gone to leave all of them with the knowledge that Steve was suffering and told none of them. None of them noticed or asked and they felt worse if it was possible.

Hopper was just happy Steve seemed to have someone on his side, they look around the house (ignore the fridge full of casseroles) and take in the damage that seems pretty self-inflicted not like Steve was fighting anything but the more they take in the more their stomachs drop. Then they see his abandoned nail bat and no one had a good feeling and with the way Will and El looked at each other it wasn't going to be good.

El quickly finds out that Steve is in the Upside-down but she doesn't know where and everyone is preparing to find the gate he was pulled through and enter to find him. But every time they try some monster comes out and they have to deal with it.

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Eddie loves having Steve in his lair. He loves taking care of him (he robbed the grocery store in the Right Side Up for what he knew Steve liked and whatever he thought he would need.) The more he tries to talk Steve into joining him he the more he starts to wonder why he should do it all, it's like the anger is slowly leaving him.

"Sweetheart, why fight for them when they never fight for you? They think you're an idiot but I know you're not. You're smart baby, so smart they just can't see that. They don't appreciate all you do for them. Why give them your energy?" Eddie will coo things like that and Steve didn't want to admit it but it was wearing down on him more than the Russian Torture did. The way Eddie would compliment him, hold him, press kisses to his knuckles and point out every time the Party hurt him in some way and how he held down the hurt. It was all becoming too much.

The more talks they had the more Steve started to believe he wouldn't last before the Party found him and when they did he would be gone. He would be like Eddie, twisted by his hurt, his sadness, his anger. But Eddie liked to point out he still had his feelings for Steve, that he felt more alive than ever. Than Vecna said if he joined them that Steve wouldn't have to deal with the poor hearing in his left ear or the strain his eyes took whenever he didn't wear the glasses he hid from everyone.

Becoming like Eddie would fix him. He wouldn't be weak anymore and it was getting more and more tempting as the hours? Days? Weeks? past.

Basically just an angsty story that will hit the feels and eventually have a happy ending. Maybe idk. Maybe Steve and Eddie destroy the world. Maybe they save it.

#steddie brainrot #steddie headcanon #kas!eddie #implied vampire Steve #what an odd tag that was XD #vampire eddie munson #steve harrington x eddie munson #steve harrington #eddie munson #vecna/henry/one #stranger things the party #stranger things angst #feels and angst and eventual comfort

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